As many of you may know, in the wake of the Harvey Weinstein scandal, women are taking to social media with the message of #MeToo to indicate that they also have been the victims of sexual abuse/harassment/assault. This is being done in the hopes that people will see the scope of the problem & realize that this is a very widespread problem that has hit nearly all women in some way.

Although I previously have spoken about my experience with domestic violence, I never really go into much detail, for a few reasons.
1. This is MY story & I will share what I want, with who I want, when I feel comfortable. While I 100% see the value in speaking out to shut down someone like Harvey Weinstein, that is not my situation. There is no legal action that could be brought upon my abuser any more, I am safe, I am happy, & I feel like my healing is better done through other methods, rather than sharing with the internet. Although, again, I support those that choose to speak out & search for healing & help in whatever ways they think best.
2. I’m not 100% convinced that randomly discussing private problems on public forums does anything except spread my business around & drudge up memories I’m trying to move past. If I volunteer for a charity, like I did with TAPS in July, & it seems relevant to mention WHY I’m invested in a charity like that, then yes, I will explain a little.
3. I want to live my life forward. I don’t want to spend creative energy on posts & videos about something that makes me sad. I want to talk to you guys about amazing books I’m reading, or fun make up looks, or new music I can’t stop listening to!

Why then, am I writing this now?

As I’ve watched nearly all of my female Facebook friends come forward with #MeToo posts, I’ve considered joining them, but have mixed emotions for the above reasons. I have enjoyed posts that say, “Survivors don’t owe you their story” or that men should be part of this narrative as well, but one status in particular struck a nerve. The person wrote, “Please don’t be afraid to speak up. You let that person win by remaining silent”


This person meant well & has a good heart, but statements like these are why I tend to shy away from putting my personal beliefs on the internet. Even with the best intentions, you never know who you’ll offend/trigger. Triggering & offending people on the internet is a topic we can discuss another day. I’m not here to offer a solution. I’m not saying, “Oh because we never know who you’ll offend or trigger, we should all stay silent!” NOPE. Not here to say that at all. What I am here to do is respond to this person’s statement because it made me FEEL. SO. MUCH. that a simple FB status wasn’t going to cut it.

As mentioned above, Survivors don’t owe anyone their story. My story is just that – MINE. MY journey. MY healing process. MY life. MY CHOICE. Choosing to live my own way is something my abuser took away from me. Even after we broke up, I lived in fear of making my own decisions because I was never sure which one was going to cause him to reach out to me – something he continues to do periodically even now, even though we’ve been broken up for 4 years. Which selfie would get “Liked” almost immediately after posting it? Would a different one elicit a comment or, worse, a text? How do I prove that I DON’T WANT THIS?!!?
This was at a time in my recovery where I did not understand that I really have nothing to do with his interactions with me. I could’ve posted a picture of cheese & crackers & he would’ve reached out just to prove that he was still watching & could elicit a response from me, which meant attention for him. For those wondering why this individual was not blocked, trust me, that tactic was tried with negative results & now it’s merely an irritation, rather than a full on stressor like it used to be.

The bottom line is…

I have made the choice to be the heroine of my story – a tagline I’m sure you’re familiar with, if you’re familiar with this blog. Thank you to Nora Ephron for inspiring me with the quote, “Above all, be the heroine of your life, not the victim”. To the well meaning FB motivator urging “me” not to be afraid to speak up & saying that “I’m” letting my abuser win by remaining silent…I appreciate what you’re trying to do, but you don’t get to dictate who wins and loses in a game you aren’t even playing. My abuser will not win – no matter what. If I stay silent or shout my story from the rooftops of Orange County, that is my choice – something my abuser will never take from me again. Every day I live on my own terms, I WIN. Not him, never again. This is my game. I am the winner, I am the champion, I am victorious, a fighter, a heroine.

Edit: I want to make really clear, this is my response to that statement as I interpreted it regarding my current situation. I fully support & encourage speaking out about any form of abuse and support those on the very difficult road from victim to hero/heroine. If I had my life to live over, I would’ve spoken up, I would’ve taken legal action, but I didn’t, & it’s too late for me now. I will never know the victory of having my abuser formally punished, so I have to take my victories in other ways. Just wanted to make clear that I’m not trying to shame anyone into silence, this was a response geared with my current situation specifically in mind.

Health/Fitness/Review: Update & Dr. Oz “3 Day Cleanse” Review

Hey everyone!
If you’ve been following my blog since January – what’s that? You’re not following me? How silly! There’s an easy fix for that! Just click the FOLLOW button at the top right of this page & you’ll be notified whenever I post something new. There, now that’s taken care of…This post will focus on updating y’all on The “Lowe” Down, the Health/Fitness plan I worked on with my friend Kylee Lowe (Instagram: @loveleeloe) and a Review of the Dr. Oz “3 Day” Cleanse. Get ready folks, it’s a long post…

In January when I moved home from SoCal I promised myself I was going to get in great shape before my 25th birthday – June 7th. I had (& still have) no job to take up my time and the added incentive of having a live in workout buddy in the form of my mom. I knew I needed to kick things up a notch so I worked with Kylee, who’s my go-to Fitness Guru. To read my previous posts about The “Lowe” Down which includes a Clean Eating Meal Plan and Exercise Routine click here, here, here, and here!

The plan we worked out was 4 weeks long & I promised to keep you updated at least once a week, but that didn’t happen & I apologize. The reason I decided to stop posting about my progress was because…there was no progress! After 3 weeks of eating clean and regular exercise, I actually gained weight! I was so upset! I had stuck to the plan Kylee created for me with only minor healthy modifications. I did struggle with the work outs because I didn’t really know what to do once I got to the gym – one of the downfalls of having your personal trainer in another state, but I still did some form of exercise at least 5 times a week! I’ve never really had a problem losing weight before. I just assumed I was heavy because I didn’t really care to be any other way. However, now that I was busting my buns in the kitchen & the gym – I was distraught to see the scale refusing to budge. This was an eye opening lesson for me. I can be an unsympathetic critic at times. In the past when I’d hear stories about people who “tried every diet but nothing worked”, I would scoff and roll my eyes. “Oh please,” I would think, “It’s basic science. Less calories in, more energy out, creates a deficit.” After seeing how hard I worked those 3 weeks with no loss in sight, I would like to apologize to anyone I have ever judged. We have no idea what’s really going on when we look at other people. We have no idea how far they’ve come, how hard they’re working, & honestly, none of that matters because it’s none of our business. Be supportive of others, but keep your eyes on your own path!

As I mentioned in my first Fitness related post, I’m fairly confident in my looks. Believe it or not, I’m in good health, my only issues stem from a lifelong minor kidney issue & injuries from cheerleading. I started this journey looking at it from a preventative angle. If I get fit now, when I find work and have less time, I’ll be at my optimum operating level. If I happen to gain weight, I’ll still be at a much healthier place than if I were to gain weight at my current state. With that being said, after not losing any weight & watching my mom lose 20 (!!!) pounds, my self esteem started to crumble. I am self destructive when I compare myself to others which I think stems from being overly competitive and a perfectionist. I TRY to have a relaxed attitude about other people’s lives because at the end of the day, to quote my favorite band, The Rocket Summer, “What’s right for me, might be not right for you”. For example, a majority of my friends graduated college at age 21 or 22, while I was still working towards my AA in community college. Sure, I felt a stab of anxiety that maybe my life was going nowhere & a hint of jealousy that they were accomplishing something major. Then I considered that they haven’t lived my life. We’ve walked very different roads and made different choices. With this in mind I’m able to keep some perspective and be genuinely happy for others while maintaining confidence in my journey. As I said earlier, be supportive of others, but keep your eyes on your own path! As you might imagine, being a teenager was Hell for me, haha! In my youth, I hadn’t quite developed the attitude I described above. Comparing myself to my friends put me in an extremely dark place that I would never like to revisit. However, while dealing with this weight loss issue, I saw shades of that darkness starting to creep out and I became extremely frustrated and emotional. I shared some of these frustrations with the personal trainer I worked with in SoCal and he helped me make some more healthy modifications to The “Lowe” Down.

Another month later and my weight loss was a grand total of….FOUR POUNDS! My faith in eating healthy and working out had been struck down. What was the point of not eating pizza and ice cream, and spending time at the gym instead of with friends, if all I had to show was a measly 1 pound a week?! NOT. WORTH. IT. Yes, I am aware that the healthiest way to lose weight is 1 to 2 lbs a week, but I want to be that person that loses 8lbs a month, dang it! On top of feeling emotionally disgruntled, I was also in near constant physical pain from injuring my hip somehow at the beginning of March. Seriously, it’s a mystery, I have no idea what I did. With my birthday goal date fast approaching, I did what any sensible person would do, work harder! I threw in the towel! Yes, I gave up! I spent a week eating Wingstop, pizza, Panda Express, Ice Cream, cookies & all sorts of indulgent foods & didn’t count one delicious calorie! However, a funny thing happened. In the midst of all that, I noticed…I didn’t feel good. I felt exhausted, sluggish, heavy, I needed naps in the middle of the day, my body was protesting, “Stop! What are you doing to me!?”. For the first time in my life…I have decided to listen to my body.

I can’t ignore the incredible negative difference I felt in that “Cheat Week” compared to when I was eating clean. My outside appearance may not show any remarkable changes, but my insides sure felt them & as I’m doing this for my health & not looks, that’s all that matters. So I’m back at it! My hip is STILL hurting, even after some time away from the gym, but I work out despite many other injuries, so I’ll just add this one to the list. I now have a much more realistic outlook. I’m not perfect, I love food, & putting so much pressure on myself to lose a certain number of pounds by a certain date was adding more stress than was necessary. Now there are no goal dates, there’s a goal number but it’s sitting on the back burner. I started this new phase off with the Dr. Oz “3 Day Cleanse” which I will briefly review down below, but even while doing that – I ate pasta. SUE ME! My grandma makes amazing pasta but she hardly ever makes it anymore. Was I going to pass up the chance to enjoy her homemade cooking? NOPE! I don’t need a fit body to help me make money, or help me do my job (if I had one), or ensure the safety of others in some way. I’m doing this for me, & on the last day of my cleanse, my grandma made me some pasta, which may have been a little misguided on her part, haha!, but was a kind gesture nonetheless. If I were to die tomorrow, I would want to be remembered as someone that loved good food, valued the feelings of others, & appreciated the gestures they made. I’ll just have to kick butt in the gym a little harder than usual now!

If you’ve read this far, thank you! I know I can be long winded, but hopefully you found something in this post worthwhile. Please read below my short (I promise!) review of the Dr. Oz “3 Day Cleanse”.

Credit to Dr. Oz

Credit to Dr. Oz

Review: I will come right out & admit – I “cheated” on this cleanse. Take my advice with a grain of salt, this is just my experience with it & how I made it work for me. I spaced all the drinks 2 hours apart.
– Disclaimer: I never drank the Green Tea, took the vitamins, or did the Detox Ultra Bath. I have a weird kidney issue that prevents me from drinking Green Tea, taking too many pills, and putting soap/salt/oils in my bath water. With that in mind, I knew this Cleanse would probably not yield weight loss results, so I was not expecting them. I was hoping to feel lighter and more energized, which I do, so I feel that it served its purpose. I have recommended this cleanse to friends.
– Day 1: The Lunch Drink was a bit hard to choke down because of the texture. I used my juicer for everything except the pineapple, coconut oil, & Almond Milk. I threw those 3 ingredients into my Magic Bullet then added the juice for a final blend, but it still resulted in a stringy, foamy texture. I didn’t drink the Snack Drink because I was feeling super full. Attempted to drink the Dinner Drink & absolutely could NOT manage. The Cayenne Pepper was so overpowering even though I put in less than the recipe called for. I couldn’t finish it, so I had chicken & veggies for dinner.
– Day 2: Fine until the Lunch Drink. This time I put everything in my juicer except the coconut oil & Almond Milk, but the texture was the same. For Snack & Dinner, I decided not to blend the ingredients at all and eat them as a salad or on their own. Cayenne Pepper is way more delicious sprinkled over Mango and Avocado than in a smoothie. I felt insanely tired this day. I think the 2nd day of a cleanse is always the hardest because your body is starting to figure out what you’re doing.
– Day 3: I decided to just eat the meals as stand alone foods or in a salad. This was much easier and tastier. I was happy to not waste any food. When I make a juice/smoothie & it turns out disgusting, I feel bad throwing it away. I’ll try to finish it but sometimes it makes me feel sick, so I’d rather toss it even though I hate watching my money go down the drain. Of course, tonight was the night of aforementioned Grandma’s Pasta, sorry I’m NOT sorry.

Okay, it’s finally over! You made it! Thank you for sticking with this post to the very end, what did you think? There was so much more I wanted to say, but I knew I was going on too much already. Have you ever experienced that emotional roller coaster that comes with weight loss or changing your lifestyle in general? Have you tried the Dr. Oz “3 Day Cleanse” or anything similar? Please let me know some good cleanses to try in the comments below! I think I’m going to try out a different cleanse every weekend…every month?…every now and then? I’m not sure, but I want to be the tester for y’all! Send me your thoughts, I’d love to chat! Thank you for reading…until next time!

Charity: Be Better Movement!

Hello all!
Today I wanted to showcase a Charity Challenge I’m participating in, the 52 Week Be Better Challenge, part of the Be Better Movement. You sign up for a 52 week (1 year) program & each week they offer up a Challenge to help improve your Health/Well Being in some way. For each weekly Challenge you participate in, Be Better donates $1 to the Charity of the month – March & April is the UNICEF Tap Project. If you post a picture of yourself participating in the challenge to any of your Social Media, they’ll donate $2! Check my Instagram: @missal_leigh & theirs: @mybebetter for pictures of previous Challenges such as Phone Time-Outs & drinking Herbal Tea!

Sugar/Calorie free Strawberry Green Tea flavored water...drink up! I aim to drink a gallon of water a day - that's only 2 of these adorable jugs!

Sugar/Calorie free Strawberry Green Tea flavored water…drink up! I aim to drink a gallon of water a day – that’s only 2 of these adorable jugs!

Have you ever participated in a Challenge like this? What do you think of this one? If you’d like more information or are considering signing up please let me know. One of my best friends is an Intern with this company (how I found out about this) – so I might be able to use my “inside connections” to your benefit, or maybe I’ll send you a little thank you for participating in such a great cause 😉

Week 3! Mid Week Update! The “Lowe” Down: Get Fit with Kylee Lowe!

Hello all!
I hope this post finds you all well! Today I’ll be posting my results & recapping my experience of Week 2 (Days 8 – 15) & giving a mid week update on my progress through Week 3 (Days 16 – 21) of the “Lowe” Down: Get Fit with Kylee Lowe! If you’ve been keeping up with the blog (click the FOLLOW button on the top right of this page to get email notifications whenever I post) you’ll remember the “Lowe” Down is a Health/Fitness Plan created for me by my friend and Fitness Guru, Miss Kylee Lowe. Check out her Instagram: @loveleeloe for fitness tips, yummy healthy recipes, and other fun goodies. Screen Shot 2015-02-18 at 7.52.02 PM

Week 2 Weight: ~ 5lbs                 > Week 3: About the same
Week 2 Measurements                > Week 3 Measurements
Biceps: (L) – 12”, (R) – 12.5”        Biceps: (L) – 11″, (R) – 11.5″
Chest/Bust: 42″                            Chest: 43″
Waist: 34”                                     Waist: 33″
Hips: 45.5”                                    Hips: 46″
Thighs: (L) – 26”, (R) – 25.75”      Thighs: (L) – 26.75″, (R) – 26″
I would be lying if I said these were the results I’m looking for, but I know this can be a slow process. I wish I was losing more weight, but I’m keeping in mind that numbers on the scale can be misleading and measurements and how I feel are more important. With that being said, although I’ve gained some inches back in my Chest/Hips/Thighs, I think that makes sense based on the Weight Lifting plan I’m on. I’m still losing in my waist, so that’s keeping me motivated. Also, I can feel my body changing – I know it hasn’t been that long – but I feel leaner and lighter. Other people have even commented that I look taller, I’m obviously not – haha!, but I think that’s due to my muscles changing which is causing my posture to change.

Days 8 – 14:
Week 2 had some interesting highs and lows. Around Day 10 I started feeling sick after some of the more vegetable heavy meals, such as the Green Juice and the Veggies/Hummus snack. I guess maybe that was my body getting used to the changes, but I’d been eating the same food all week with no negative reaction – I’m not sure what changed. I tried to stick to the meal plan as best as I could, but as soon as my stomach started to feel queasy, I stopped eating. I didn’t binge on other foods, which is obviously a plus, but I’m sure it’s not great that I wasn’t finishing all the meals. I’m happy to be going to the gym on a regular basis. I do enjoy working out, believe it or not. I’m just not sure I’m doing the right stuff or that my form is correct – one of the negatives of having your trainer live in a different state! 😦 I might look into working with a Personal Trainer from my gym just for a session on proper form. I’ve also signed up for a month long pass at a Dance Studio that offers Hot Hula, Zumba, Yoga, Pilates, etc, and I’m really excited to start that in March.

The “Lowe” Down – Week 3!

Days 15 – 21:
Not much to report this week. Week 3 is the same meal plan as Week 2. Fitness is almost the same – add another day of weight training. I was hoping to get some new recipes because I have enjoyed learning about proper portion size and different healthy recipes, but I guess if it’s not broke – don’t fix it!

Have you been following along with my posts about The “Lowe” Down? What are your thoughts at this point? I can’t wait to see the end results of all this after Week 4! Keep checking back to follow my progress and contact Kylee on Instagram: @loveleeloe if you’re interested in working with her on a Get Fit plan of your own! Thanks for reading, until next time…

Week 2! The “Lowe” Down: Get Fit with Kylee Lowe!

Hello again!
Today I’m going to be posting the results of Week 1 of The “Lowe” Down and the plan for Week 2. If you haven’t been following along, click here to read last week’s post about a new Collaboration I’m working on with my friend and Fitness Guru, Kylee Lowe. Follow her Instagram: @loveleeloe to get great fitness tips and contact her about getting The “Lowe” Down for yourself. Click the FOLLOW button on the top right of this page to subscribe to my blog and you’ll be notified when I post new updates! Also, Follow my Instagram: @missal_leigh to get sneak peeks of the plan in action!


Starting Weight: ~ 170 (like 173/174) > Week 2: ~ 5lbs
Starting Measurements                       > Week 2
Biceps: (L) – 13.25”, (R) – 13.5”            Biceps: (L) – 12″, (R) – 12.5″
Chest/Bust: 43”/36-38 DDD                 Chest: 42″
Waist: 36”                                             Waist: 34″
Hips: 45.5”                                            Hips: 45.5″
Thighs: (L) – 26.25”, (R) – 26.5”           Thighs: (L) – 26″, (R) – 25.75″
YAY, making progress! I feel much lighter and have more energy. Although I will say, I have a co-conspirator doing this with me, who wishes to remain anonymous, and she lost 12 pounds and 12 inches (!!!!) this week. I’m really proud of her for sticking with this, but I’m also a little jealous – haha!

Days 5 – 7:
The rest of Week 1 went really well! Again, maybe TMI for some, but you’ll be okay…I have NEVER gone pee this much in my life! The wonders of drinking water – haha! I’m not a huge water drinker, I mostly stick to juice, so drinking just water has been one of the biggest changes in my diet. It was a bit challenging to complete the Fitness portion because it’s been raining here, but I still got it done! Check my Instagram for some silly pictures of Bella after getting caught in the rain on our walk! I’ll be switching over to the gym from here on out, but I’d like to get Bella on a more consistent walking schedule because I think she enjoyed being out and about. As I mentioned in my Mid Week Update the food for days 4 – 7 was delicious. The menu has been changed up a bit for Week 2 & I have to say I’m sad to see my peanut butter and rice cake snack go, but it’s okay! I was somewhat surprised to see the Juices make a return, but I like the idea of learning how to incorporate Juicing into a Clean Diet.

                                                             The “Lowe” Down – Week 2!
Days 8 – 14:
Fitness: Running 6 of the 7 days for 30-45 minutes! Weight training 3 times.
*Before you eat/drink anything, drink a glass of lemon water after your morning run!
– Green Juice 8oz, 2 whole eggs cooked in coconut oil
– Green Smoothie
– Energy Juice, Mixed Raw Veggies, Hummus
– Lean Ground Turkey, Baby Spinach, Avocado, Fat Free dressing or Hot Sauce  & Tea
– Protein Shake
– Chicken, Brown Rice or Sweet Potatoes, Veggies
*Just before bed, drink hot tea or hot water & add lemon & cayenne pepper

So there ya have it! We’ve made it to Week 2! What do you think so far? Please leave me any of your comments/questions/concerns in the comments and be sure to contact Kylee through her Instagram: @loveleeloe to get the full details of the plan.

Mid Week Update! Get the “Lowe” Down: Get Fit with Kylee Lowe!

Hi all! Keep reading to see what happened during Days 2 & 3 of the Juicing Phase of The “Lowe” Down, a Diet/Fitness plan created by my friend & fitness guru Kylee Lowe! Go follow her on Instagram: @loveleeloe and contact her to get a plan of your own! Follow me on Instagram/Twitter: @missal_leigh for more updates and pics! Click here to see what happened on Day 1 and the full Week 1 plan!

IMG_3028First off, just in case anyone is curious, here are my Starting Measurements. I would like to lose at least 10 inches from my Chest/Waist/Hips, but obviously, I expect that will take some time.
Biceps: (L) – 13.25”, (R) – 13.5”
Chest/Bust: 43”/36-38 DDD
Waist: 36”
Hips: 45.5”
Thighs: (L) – 26.25”, (R) – 26.5”

Day 2 & 3:
As expected Days 2 & 3 went much better than Day 1. I did not find Juicing, or at least Kylee’s version of it, to be as difficult as people say it is. I think that’s because my diet problems don’t stem from eating too much, too often, they stem from not eating often enough and then binging on unhealthy items. For example, when I was in school (in December lol), I would have a somewhat healthy breakfast, then eat maybe one or two granola/protein bars throughout the day. After being in class all day – trust me when I say ALL day, my last semester at Chapman I took 22 units/7 classes – I would go out with friends and have appetizers, dinner, dessert, and most likely a few drinks. Basically all my food was being eaten with no calorie count in mind, after 7pm or later, which is when you’re supposed to STOP eating! With that in mind, drinking/eating every 2 hours was challenging because I would still be somewhat full from the meal before. There was definitely an adjustment/learning period and it almost felt like once I was really starting to get the hang of the routine – we moved on to Day 4. I’m happy to eat “real food”, but I also feel like I could’ve Juiced a little longer. Overall, my biggest complaint was that I had no personal taste for some of the menu items. The Green Juice and Butternut Squash soup were just not tasty to me. I knew from the get-go that they probably wouldn’t be as I’m not a huge fan of the ingredients of the Green Juice or Butternut Squash. Despite that, I wanted to stick to the exact plan Kylee laid out for me. The Energy and Antioxidant Juice were amazing! I’ll drink those all day, everyday! If I Juice again, I know I will have to suffer through the Green Juice because of all the vegetables it has in it, but I will try to find another soup that’s just as healthy but has a flavor I enjoy more.

Day 4:
Today has been really awesome! I feel great! Tons of energy, even now at 10pm. I don’t know if I feel more energized because the effects of the Juicing are taking over or because I got to eat some more substantial meals – haha! Like I said, the Juicing was good, but chicken and rice is better, even when you can only eat 4 oz. and 1/2 a cup of it! Now I understand why you have to start exercising on Day 4.  With all this energy running through me, I NEEDED to get out of the house and go move around. I took Bella for a walk to start out, but will most likely progress to running at the gym. The menu items for Day 4 – 7 are all really tasty and I’m excited about them. Never thought I’d be excited about vegetables! I was much better about drinking water today. It was hard to drink water with the Juices because I wasn’t thirsty and I felt kind of overwhelmed by all the liquids…and constantly having to pee. Sorry, TMI! Moving on…I feel confident about sticking to the diet for the next few days. I’m excited to see what Kylee comes up for Week 2, which will be posted on Sunday, February 8th! Check back in then & keep checking Instagram: @missal_leigh for special updates and @loveleeloe to get in contact with Kylee to get The “Lowe” Down for yourself!

What do you think? Please send me some love/advice/questions/concerns, in the comment box below – thanks for reading!

New! Get the “Lowe” Down: Get Fit with Kylee Lowe

Hey y’all! I have a very exciting announcement to make – I’m entering into a fitness/blogging collaboration with Fitness Guru, fellow Blogger, and life-long friend, Miss Kylee Lowe! Kylee is extremely passionate about fitness and way more knowledgable about the ins and outs of creating a healthy body than I am – check out her Instagram: @loveleeloe for proof! Keep reading to get the “Lowe” down & see the Get Fit plan Kylee created for me!

IMG_3017Backstory: I will make no excuses…okay, I will make some excuses. I know I should exercise more and eat better, but I’m naturally a “bigger” girl, and I’m fine with that. I’m Greek and Portuguese, I come from a family of big women, I’m barely 5 foot but was somehow gifted with 34DD’s – I have been big/curvy/fat/chubby/thick etc, my entire life. Even at my thinnest, 120 lbs, I still had big boobs and a big butt. I have never been, nor do I ever expect to be, THIN. I’m more Kim Kardashian than Nicole Richie – just to name 2 short celebrities with polar opposite body types. I’m very lucky and thankful to have been blessed with family, friends, boyfriends, and an inner goddess that have always focused on my inner beauty and growth, more than what I look like on the outside. Due to that inner focus, I have felt confident for the majority of my post-pubescent years, despite my weight fluctuations and what popular culture might say. If my current weight was healthy for me, I wouldn’t change a thing. While this level of confidence is great for my inner goddess, it’s not great for my health because it lulls me into a false sense of security that I’m fine just the way I am. The truth is – I’m not. I currently hit the scale at about *gulp* 170 lbs, which is not the heaviest I’ve ever been, but I need to make some changes.

In 2011 I lost a significant amount of weight on my own (40 lbs), and have continued to yo-yo since then. Enlisting the help of a friend who is trained in health and fitness lets me know I’m going about this in a healthy manner and makes me accountable. I don’t want to put all this personal information on the internet and have Kylee take time out of her busy schedule to help me  – and then not follow through.

Kylee has graciously created a 4 week plan that I will follow for the month of February. Please click the FOLLOW button on the top right of my blog to get email updates when I post the next step of the plan or my weekly results! If you’re interested in working with Kylee on a plan of your own, please contact her through her blog – link to come soon! – or Instagram: @loveleeloe

The “Lowe” Down
This is the general steps for Week 1. I will update here and Instagram: @missal_leigh as I see fit plus include a weekly report on Day 8.

Days 1 – 3:
– Green Juice & Tea
– Energy Juice
– Cauliflower Soup & Tea
– Antioxidant Juice
– Green Juice
– Butternut Squash Soup & Tea

Days 4 – 7:
30 to 40 minutes of walking or running each day
– Green Smoothie
– Veggies, Rice Cake w/All Natural Peanut Butter
– Chicken or Fish & Spinach w/1 tbsp Fat Free Dressing
– Protein Shake
– Chicken, Brown Rice, Veggies
– Cauliflower Soup & Tea

Day 1: I’m off to a shaky start. I didn’t realize I would be better off with a Juicer, rather than a blender, so I was unprepared to begin. After doing some research and setting off to the store to buy a Juicer, among other errands, I finally started MUCH later in the day, which has thrown off the entire schedule. I’m a very dedicated “trainee” and am willing to push myself, thanks to growing up a competitive cheerleader, so while I am not a fan of the Green Juice ingredients, or taste, or aftertaste, I will continue to drink it as scheduled. Kylee has told me to play around with the ingredients and measurements, so I’m sure I will be able to create something more tolerable. The amount of liquids I drank today definitely kept me feeling full, but somewhat unsatisfied as I do not totally enjoy the Green Juice – yet! I did notice a significant dip in energy around 7 pm, but I am attributing that to not being on the correct schedule and not really having anything in my system until pretty late in the day. Now that I have all the correct ingredients and appliances, I am 100% confident that tomorrow will be more successful.

What do you think?! Are you interested in working with Kylee on your own plan? Please reach out to her and leave me some comments of support or any advice you might have!